The garden of desire is wild, unsleeping.
The keeper prunes what would choke the paths,
buries what offends the season,
yet still the blooms
insist upon their own time.
their own timetheir own timetheir own time
·Manyorchidsreproducethrough deception.They mimic the appearanceand scent of female insects.The male attempts to mate withthe flower. In doing so he pollinates it.The male attempts to mate with the flower. Indoing so he pollinates it. They mimic the appearance andscent of female insects. The male attempts to mate with the flower.In doing so he pollinates it. They mimic the appearanceand scent of female insects. The male attemptsto mate with the flower. In doing sohe pollinates it.In doing sohe pollinatesit.||||||THE ORCHID OFFERS NOTHING. THE INSECT BELIEVES EVERYTHING.
There is in a man's breath
a confession and a lie.
He sits, wanting what he cannot say,
and he trembles and tightens
with the effort of restraint.
Every breath is measured,
every exhale effort, and in that labor,
the shoulders, the throat, the desire
erects its own boundaries, a garden of silence
where longing grows wild and untended.
where longing grows wild and untended.
wild and untended wild and untended
wildanduntendedwildanduntended
"I must have flowers, always, and always."
CLAUDE MONET
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What grows in your garden that you have never shown anyone?
the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want the want
I have wanted things I have never saidout loud and the not saying has become agarden so overgrown I could not find thewant now if I tried. It is in there. Underdecades of silence and misdirection andthe correct answer to every question aboutwhat I need. I do not know what I need. Iknow what I am supposed to need. Thesupposed has overrun the real and the realmay be gone or may be waiting and I cannottell the difference because I stoppedlistening so long ago that the voice itspeaks in is no longer a voice I recognize.I have wanted things I have never said outloud and the not saying has become a gardenso overgrown I could not find the want nowif I tried. It is in there. Under decades ofsilence and misdirection and the correctanswer to every question about what I need.I do not know what I need. I know what I amsupposed to need. The supposed has overrunthe real and the real may be gone or may bewaiting and I cannot tell the differencebecause I stopped listening so long ago thatthe voice it speaks in is no longer a voiceI recognize. I have wanted things I havenever said out loud and the not saying hasbecome a garden so overgrown I could notfind the want now if I tried. It is in there.Under decades of silence and misdirectionand the correct answer to every questionabout what I need. I do not know what Ineed. I know what I am supposed to need.The supposed has overrun the real and thereal may be gone or may be waiting and Icannot tell the difference because I stoppedlistening so long ago that the voice itspeaks in is no longer a voice I recognize.I have wanted things I have never said outloud and the not saying has become a gardenso overgrown I could not find the want nowif I tried. It is in there. Under decadesof silence and misdirection and the correctanswer to every question about what I need.I do not know what I need. I know what I amsupposed to need. The supposed has overrunthe real and the real may be gone or may bewaiting and I cannot tell the differencebecause I stopped listening so long agothat the voice it speaks in is no longera voice I recognize.
I have wanted things I have never saidout loud and the not saying has become agarden so overgrown I could not find thewant now if I tried. It is in there. Underdecades of silence and misdirection andthe correct answer to every question aboutwhat I need. I do not know what I need. Iknow what I am supposed to need. Thesupposed has overrun the real and the realmay be gone or may be waiting and I cannottell the difference because I stoppedlistening so long ago that the voice itspeaks in is no longer a voice I recognize.I have wanted things I have never said outloud and the not saying has become a gardenso overgrown I could not find the want nowif I tried. It is in there. Under decades ofsilence and misdirection and the correctanswer to every question about what I need.I do not know what I need. I know what I amsupposed to need. The supposed has overrunthe real and the real may be gone or may bewaiting and I cannot tell the differencebecause I stopped listening so long ago thatthe voice it speaks in is no longer a voiceI recognize. I have wanted things I havenever said out loud and the not saying hasbecome a garden so overgrown I could notfind the want now if I tried. It is in there.Under decades of silence and misdirectionand the correct answer to every questionabout what I need. I do not know what Ineed. I know what I am supposed to need.The supposed has overrun the real and thereal may be gone or may be waiting and Icannot tell the difference because I stoppedlistening so long ago that the voice itspeaks in is no longer a voice I recognize.I have wanted things I have never said outloud and the not saying has become a gardenso overgrown I could not find the want nowif I tried. It is in there. Under decadesof silence and misdirection and the correctanswer to every question about what I need.I do not know what I need. I know what I amsupposed to need. The supposed has overrunthe real and the real may be gone or may bewaiting and I cannot tell the differencebecause I stopped listening so long agothat the voice it speaks in is no longera voice I recognize.
DRAW IT OPEN
The garden you tend most secretly is the garden that tends you.